4th Week of Work...

time really flies
so fast i am now in the 4th week of work in Shanghai
i think in my cliche i am considered quite fortunate
burger and i have long lunch hrs 11.30am-2pm
work hrs are 9am-5.30pm
even though burger and my work are quite intensive
doing report every wk
gg crazy over the financial data and prospectus of companies
i think we really did learn stuff

the boss told us to do translation for a 22 page report on this mon and tue
we were shocked coz is from chi to eng
and the topic is regarding some gas industry
totally no link to wat we are exposed to
tough day la
i think it is even worst than doing report in some ways
coz we really dun understand a lot of words
then very funny we ask all our china itp friends who has msn
XinYi-from Malaysia
George-from Taiwan
Hanming-from China
Ourselves-from Singapore
haha everyone like duno la
how pathetic it is sia
we are supposed to translate 2 pages per person each day
end of monday
we only done 3/4 of a page TOGETHER!!!

so tough le
then we told our boss
he told us to try another day
for tue
then not so bad la
coz a lot of repetitive stuff
so we did till BEGINNING of page 4 lol
at 5.30pm we go ask him then he say he no do liao
so we just gg to concentrate on our Discounted Cash Flow(DCF) Model
sounds familar right???
yes it's from MA and FF....faint!!!!

so here we are supposed to do yet i blogging
and burger talking to ceyang and her friends haha....

recently got quite a few things happen in this trip
dun wanna talk abt it
but at least it's over
and we got the results that we want
but also through these 2 weeks
that i really thought abt a lot of stuff
how politics certain stuff can be
and i used to thought ignorantly
that these kind of things cant really happen yet
while i'm still schooling

i think like xin ji quite heavy
but still i understand
everyone wants to protect themselves
so we all in turn will become cunning
it's a cruel world
like wat tv always say be eaten or eat others
either u become strong or be prepared to be eaten by the strong

but like wat i told burger
church always teach us
we all have talents within ourselves
they can make u very strong and powerful
and from there
either u turn very bad
or u struggle to maintain to be good
but it is actually not a struggle if u think this way
"I wanna use my talents for the good,weak and the poor"
we are who we are for a reason...God's reason
keep that faith and i believe it will be done

i did a test just now at
http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

My results are

You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.
(i didnt really think of it till it is put into words. I want to be needed)

In the past there have been - and maybe there still are - many things that you have had to do without. You have now decided to set your sights on a position or situation that could give you greater prestige and which will afford you considerable self esteem.
(true...i wanna do that. I'm gg to be involved in something like that which not a lot of ppl know abt it yet)

You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That's the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.
(this is wat i dread...coz i'm really in this situation now.)

Presently, you are experiencing stress because of restriction on your independence. You need and seek respect from other people and it is essential that they appreciate you for yourself and not for what they would like you to be. You have your own beliefs and convictions and you would like to be respected for them. You are anxious to avail yourself of every opportunity that may come your way but nevertheless, come what may, you have the need to control your own destiny without imposed limitations or restrictions.
(Scaringly true....sigh..i hope they can see this. For those who know my problems u all know who i'm referring to)

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.
(Will they do it though??? it seems like a far far away dream)

this is soooooooo true...
i'm going to do it once in a while
to see if there are any changes

I miss Singapore
I miss my family
I miss my cell grp
I miss my church
but i dread going back
to face the problems that i have run away temporarily from
to face the work that i'm supposed to do
to accept the responsibility that i'm going to take up
to meet the person whom i really need to talk to
to lose the temporarily freedom that i have now

Lord...I commit everything into ur hands
Give me protection Lord
Physically and Mentally
especially over my Mindset, Father
I pray all these in JESUS ALMIGHTY NAME
AMEN