Last wk of in China

finally itp coming to an end
i really got sick and tired of writing reports
and the reports are harder to write than poly's one
but that's not the worst
the worst is that after working so hard for it
our overall grade is only a B+
sigh.....
something even worst is that
EVERYONE and i mean really EVERYONE i ask who is in this China ITP
ALL GOT A.........

sigh.....
no mood for anything liao
sianz

i am missing Shanghai already
especially the food
but this ITP really spoilt everything

tonight gg for commom meal dinner buffet at some seafood restaurant
no appetite for anything liao
i guess i should go and listen to the
"How to handle dissapointment" audio sermon given to me by cg ppl
but i think now i cannot take in anything into my head now

You feel that everything is going against you and you are worn out and exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling. You are trying to protect yourself but at the same time you are hiding your feelings, hoping that by so doing, you can avoid exposing yourself to attack. Hopefully this will give you the chance to get on with your life. Nevertheless, you should be very careful to try to avoid stirring up any opposition which might endanger your plans:

For some time now you may have been subjected to considerable physical illness and or emotional distress. This may have taken a severe toll and you feel both physically and mentally worn out. Your self esteem has been reduced and you now need a peaceful environment which will permit you to effect full recovery.

It is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influence and there is no one to rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you'll have to make the best of things as they are.

Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment. It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'. Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

the last paragraph not accurate
i wont really withdraw ba
just need a while to get over it

God i need ur grace
help me to handle everything
Amen