Life has to go on....

Wed 25 July 2007
the bus accident that happened less than 2 wks from the previous car accident
why......
just wat is happening....
everything that is happening seems to be related to her....
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Thu 26 July 2007
UCCD presentation finally over.....
wont be going for the lecture and last tut
cause dun like the tcher....
she seems more biased to the guys
and also cause she taught them last yr
so i think the grading might be a bit more biased to the former dbf 22 class.....
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Fri 27 July 2007
went back to sch specially for 1 hr MA lecture and hand in MA project
MA really brought out the bad side of everyone
ppl are throwing temper
cursing vulgar words
angry and stressed
crying in desperation
giving up....
i'm lucky not to be that extent but definitely very stressed and frustrated
cause half of the time i'm very blur
very lucky to have cai rong in my grp
although a bit guilty not to have hlp much
made a promise that this will not happen again
no skipping of impt MA practical nxt sem.....

had a very tired and stressed day then finally waited for cg time
went to West Mall at 4pm to have bible study with catherine
after cg is bbq
really enjoyed my time there despite the tiredness
chee leng and i was so tired that we had a "tiny little nap" before the cg lol =p
but i must say going to cg really brightens my day
cause i really feel so loved there
i thank u Lord for each and every unique person in my cg

chee leng told me sometime that she yee jie and clarice had thought of
why is there so many accidents happening in my family
i had thought a little abt it but didnt dare to dwell on it
but after mentioning by chee leng
cant hlp but think.....
is it possible???
wanted to ask catherine on that day
but didnt have the courage to face the ans yet
plus it was late had to leave already

then reached home had phone conference abt bookbuzz
had wondered whether should i really take up so many things in my life now
but i think it should be ok cause nxt sem wont be as packed ba
hopefully.....
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Sat 28 July 2007
went to malaysia as usual in the morning
after we came back my mum and I went to register for driving basic theory test
test date is on 4th Oct
thought it was Sep but oh well longer time to study
didnt went church......
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Sun 29 July 2007
woke up early at 6.45am to prepare to go for church
had slp at almost 2am ytd
reading harry potter bk 7
whole family hadnt slp cause they had afternoon nap but i was doing FA tut
then my mum asked me in a stern voice
"Are u sure u going church tmr? It is already almost 2am. How many hrs do u have to slp?"
i just sighed silently and said yes i'm still going...
then went to bed.

very sad cause today had a special ministry svc where the pastor Mike Connell
will cast out devil during a special 1 hr period for everyone after the normal svc
the normal svc ended at 12pm used to be normally 12.30-1pm then end
thought i could stay for a while to see the deliverance
but.....
as usual i just left the church with tears and relectant feelings
and went to tampines mall to wait for my parents and sis
cause my dad had to meet a client there at 3pm
in the end i waited 1 AND A HALF HOUR FOR THEM!!!!!
it was 2.10pm then they arrived
if i had went for the special ministry which will end at 1.30
I WOULD STILL BE EARLIER THAN THEM!!!!
i was so frustrated......
why......
before i left expo my dad had actually said i can stay at expo till they come and fetch me
but my mum asked my sis to sms me
"Mum say from now onwards dun call her hp anymore or sms.
she is boiling up already and dun ever talk to her anymore
Mum says u r a liar."
wat can i say after seeing this sms
so i left expo immediately
i realise i really dun understand her anymore
who is the one changing here
i really duno anymore....

i was in tears when i hugged my cg mates gdbye
i'm struggling to go for cg and svc each wk
facing both the distance
time taken
arguments that occurred
stress to handle
but dun understand how come some ppl can treat it so....
casually not appreciating wat ease they had in coming.
going to church and svc is very
precious to me.....

i had wanted to ask catherine abt the qn that i thought of since fri
but didnt have the chance
or was it courage
i really duno wat i myself want sometimes
indecisive tiffany
make up ur mind!!!!!!

if wat chee leng they all thought is true
then i really will be hesistant for the nxt course of action
but i know deep in my mind
this possibility is quite high
if i asked the qn
i might not be able to take that ans....
or the regret that i will feel if i asked
should I or should I not???
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omg....i think i getting a flu
kept sneezing today with a blocked running nose
tmr still got CRM presentation
formal somemore
sigh......
after this presentation still got a MA test on wed
OMG i just remembered still got that Khong Guan business trip
so that means.....
duno prayer grp can make it or not
sigh.....Satan's really strong on our prayer grp so many consecutive things happening on wed
BREAKTHROUGH!!!!!
the name of my blog
the url of my blog
the dream in my mind
the faith in my heart.