The Long Awaited Friday

today is the day
Friday
the day whether i'm going to continue going for cg
or stop it temporarily
the end results is
Dad arrived on time today....
this means
i get to continue going for cg
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but i must say i duno i'm actually happy or sad
happy cause i really want to continue going to cg
sad cause.......
if i continue going for both church svc and cg
will i gain the trust and freedom to stay as long as i want???
i'm lost Jesus
where is ur shepherd for me???
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today i officially ended my 3 day fast for breakthrough
skipping a meal each day
i feel that fasting is gd
it calms me
praying during fasting really makes me feel not hungry
i should do it more often

they say fast for breakthrough cannot take only 1 day
that's why i decided to fast for 3 days
but my 3 days actually seems to pass very fast
and it is only partial fast
nxt time i should actually fast a whole day without food
and slowly extend it......
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i memorised something in The Purpose Driven by Rick Warren

"We are products of our past, but not prisoners of it"

i think this sentence can really be use in a lot of situation
i duno abt others but i think it is really applicable in my case
dun feel like explaining here
sigh.....
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Jesus
wat SHOULD i do next???
wat CAN i do next???